Editing a manuscript about Ojibwe child welfare that I finished writing almost seven years ago has, in some ways, brought me back to the beginning of my blogging adventure. It reminded me of the first reflection I posted here. And it reminded me of the community of visionary, supportive critical thinkers who greeted me. It felt as though I was surrounded by a creative community.
Over the years, though, most of my original virtual friends left the blogosphere. A few changed focus. And I finally found myself less inclined to blog. I no longer felt like I was part of a community that reminded me of my college days or first jobs when everyone I knew was struggling to make ends meet but was still excited to share with others – to share whatever they had with others in times of need. And eager to share sorrow, joy, wonder, laughter, and ideas about how to create a kinder world. I miss that.
I didn’t realize how out-of-touch I’ve become with the world around me until my grandson’s birthday in early January. The things that interest my family, the mainstream media, and much of the blogging world, don’t feed my spirit, or my sense of curiosity and wonder. Why should they? I’ve learned it’s okay to be different. I have no need to try to make others be like me or think the way I do. We each have our own path to walk, our own lessons to learn, and our own gifts to share.
As I say my final goodbye to blogging today, I am sharing my first post. It describes a choice I made that changed my life. I remain grateful I had the courage to try something I never could have imagined.
Thank all of you who visit this blog on the margins of things. I wish you all a chance to find the path that leads you to the place you are meant to be…
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More than two decades ago, when my daughter was a senior in high school, she received a commendation notice from her French teacher. This was not the first or last, but it was the one I noticed on a different level. I remember “seeing red” when I noticed the logo on the top, yet I immediately reflected on the message – my daughter had demonstrated excellent work. So I complemented her. Then, I contacted the Wisconsin Department of Public Instruction (WDPI) to explore what protections they had in place to prevent racial stereotyping of indigenous peoples. The response from WDPI changed my life.
At the time, I was working on a federal grant to address elder abuse in eight pilot counties in Wisconsin. In an effort to promote awareness about the project, I met with a reporter from a local paper. In the process of talking about the project, “Tools of the Trade for Men Who Care,” the reporter and I became friends. We were both outsiders in the largely white, Christian community. She was Jewish, and I was Ojibwe. I mentioned the appalling name and logo used by the local high school, and mentioned that I had been advised by WDPI to wait until my daughter graduated to pursue any action. But, I was told, there was a state statute, the Pupil Nondiscrimination Act that I could use as the basis of a complaint. The WPDI staff added that although the statute had never been tested for its relevance to discriminatory logos and team names, filing a complaint under this statute could set an important precedent. My friend asked me to let her know if I ever decided to pursue the issue.
The months passed and my daughter graduated and went off to a university. I stayed in touch with my friend at the newspaper as the project I was working on gained momentum. Then, I added another job. I was completing my doctorate in social welfare at the time, and began as a teaching assistant in a sociology class on diversity and discrimination. As I faced the 465 students, I realized that ethically I needed to walk the talk and address the discriminatory use of logos by public schools in the state.
My education thus far had taught me two things that appeared relevant to this issue. First, when approaching community change, it is always best to start on the assumption that others may easily agree if approached from a position of collaboration. So I drafted a letter to the superintendent of schools in the district. I asked my diplomatic and thoughtful university advisor to review the letter, and when he commented that it was well-reasoned and balanced, I sent it off. I also sent a copy to my friend at the newspaper.
Second, I expected a thoughtful diplomatic response from the superintendent of schools. If one believes the physics theory that every action results in an equal and opposite reaction, a well-reasoned letter calling attention to unintentional discrimination toward Native Americans should result in the willingness to dialogue, right? That was not the case. The response of the superintendent was to send a copy of my letter to the weekly newspaper in the local community. My friend also broke the story in a larger newspaper on a slow news day. Within a week, I was the topic of hundreds of letters to the editor in local and state newspapers, and featured on the nightly TV news. The community reaction included nasty, degrading personal attacks and threats.
After the initial media blitz, I attempted to reason with the school board at perhaps the best attended meeting in their history. There were at least 100 people in attendance, many of whom were in their 50s, 60s, or older. It struck me as sad that so many elders defined their sense of identity with a high school name and logo. (I had also gone to a school with a winning football team tradition, yet decades after graduation, my identity as a human being had nothing to do with the name or logo of the team – the “dragons.” I already had a tribe to which I belonged.)
I presented my case to the group, and angry community members responded by voicing three recurring arguments: “we’re honoring Indians” (so shut up and be honored); “other schools and national teams do it” (so it’s okay); and “we’ve always done it this way” (so the history of denigrating others and exploiting their cultures makes it acceptable to continue, even when presented with evidence that it causes lasting harm). The most interesting observation voiced by community members – “If we call our team the Red Hawks, the ASPCA will complain about discrimination.” Only one person at the meeting spoke in my defense, a minister who was new to the community. He stated that the entire scene at the meeting reminded him of the civil rights struggles in the South during the 1960s. He added that my position was reasonable, and he was aware that by saying so, he was likely to experience backlash from the community.
It was obvious from this meeting that change would not come willingly from the community. Other change strategies would be necessary if I decided to pursue the issue. So, I undertook a number of exploratory steps. Two brave teachers at the elementary school invited me to speak to 4th and 5th grade classes. My friend from the newspaper came with me, and published an article that highlighted the thoughtful and respectful comments and questions that students voiced.
I spent time perusing the library of two educators who had collected an array of materials about Indian issues and Indian education, copying articles and materials that provided a foundation for understanding the significance of stereotyping for youth, both Native and non-Native. I met with Native colleagues at the university, and they volunteered to circulate petitions to voice their strong objections to the use of American Indians as mascots and logos. And, I reviewed the WI Pupil Non-Discrimination statute, and drafted a formal complaint. I contacted a faculty member in the law school at the university, and he agreed to review the draft and give me suggestions for improvements. (Coincidentally, he had won a Supreme Court case on behalf of the Crow Tribe, asserting the Tribe’s jurisdiction over non-Natives who committed crimes on the reservation, angering powerful forces in Montana. He became a supportive ally for me throughout the legal process.)
The law I was testing required that I deliver a formal complaint to the Principal in person, which meant I had to march into the high school to his office. Two Native friends, both large Indian men, volunteered to go with me. The office was abuzz with activity when they saw us arrive to deliver the complaint. And so began the next phase of what had become both a campaign and a contest.
Because it was clear that the local community was resistant to any change, I decided to take the campaign and contest to a state level. I presented my case to the Inter-Tribal Council comprised of leaders from Wisconsin’s 11 tribes and gained their support. I contacted statewide groups that supported treaty rights and gained their endorsement as well. I put together press packets and met with editorial boards for my friend’s newspaper and the most prominent state newspaper, gaining support from both. And I approached a supportive legislator who agreed to present a bill to the WI legislature to address the use of American Indians in the 60-90 school districts in the state that were then using American Indian names and logos for their sports teams.
The local school district chose to fight the complaint, using educational monies to pay the school district’s attorney thousands of dollars to defend continuing discrimination. The school’s attorney and I were summoned to meet with the Chief Legal Counsel for the WDPI to argue the case. My friend from the law department came with me as support, although I knew that it was my role to serve as the primary speaker on the issue. As the meeting began, it was clear that the Chief Legal Counsel was leaning toward the district’s position. The district’s attorney launched into a loud tirade about how stupid my complaint was, arguing that it was not a proper legal document and my concerns were pointless and silly. I remained calm and focused, and when the attorney finally was silenced by the Chief Counsel, I quietly replied. “I know that I am not a lawyer. But I do know that I am a good writer and I have presented the issue in clear English.” At that point, a major shift occurred. The Chief Counsel looked at me and replied “I, for one, would appreciate hearing a clear explanation of the issues. Please take us through your complaint.” At that point, he became a behind-the-scenes ally. We later found ourselves as co-defendants in court when the school district filed a motion to stop my complaint from moving forward. I was able to secure representation from ACLU, but the district prevailed. The judge ruled that I was barred from moving forward with the complaint. The district celebrated by sending the school band to march in front of my house playing the national anthem and other patriotic songs.
Thankfully, the district’s victory was short-lived. The Chief Legal Counsel took the issue to the State Attorney General who ruled that although I could not move my complaint forward, the statute could be used by others to challenge the use of Indian names and mascots. And despite the court victory, the offensive cartoon that was prominently displayed on the gym wall was removed. (Police cars were parked on the street in front of my house that day.)
The outcome for the community took time, but it was the best resolution. Ten years later, the students themselves advocated to change the name and logo for their sports team – to the Red Hawks. (I doubt that the ASPCA will ever file a complaint.) And every session, my friend in the legislature continued to introduce his legislation to discourage the use of American Indians as names and mascots. It took 20 years for the bill to be enacted. In the interim, he placed a state map with black pins depicting districts with Indian logos and pink pins to denote districts that voluntarily changed to other names and logos as a result of increasing awareness.
As I look back on those years, the most important thing I remember is something I learned from the two educators who shared their library. After I read and copied books and articles for 3 days, they asked me what I had learned. My response was simple. “I have learned that this has been an ongoing issue throughout U.S. history. I am but the voice of the present, and I still have so much to learn. Others who are more knowledgeable than I am will need to follow.”
Many hundreds of friends and allies helped me raise awareness before, during, and after my involvement. In some settings, my voice was perhaps the most effective, and sometimes, others were the most effective advocates. I learned that it is not who serves as the lead spokesperson that matters. What matters is contributing what one can in the ongoing challenge of creating a community, state, nation, and world that promotes inclusion and respect for differences.
Be happy, dear Carol whatever happens! And that’s a pity to know about the end of your blogging…Anyway, let your new path be fruitful & full of new discoveries! Thank you for all your shared thoughts! :-)🌹🌹🌹🥳
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Thank you so much for your support and kindness over the years, Maria. Please stay in touch, Sending gratitude and blessings to you. 💜
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🙂🙂🙂 Of course, my dear Carol. Let’s email each other more often.😉☕
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Thank you, dear UM. 💜
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Thank you Carol for witness to the world, and to qoute John Lewis, your work of creating ” good trouble.” I too have similiar feelings you describe about blogging, and life and general. You have shared so much and you made a huge diiference. It is an honour that I have been able to get to know and learn about you and your work, yor family, your struggles, and your ongoing journey in this manner. You and your good spirit will remain in my heart. Your love and solidarity for humanity and the earth and the sky in its fullness, has (and will continue) to bring me hope. Peace to you, and for all.
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Thank you so much for your kind and lovely comments, Bruce. I’m deeply grateful for the chance to meet you here, and to learn from your depth, creativity, and vision. Your work is an inspiration to all who find their way to your beautiful blog. Sending blessing to you and your lovely family. 💜
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I’m not at all surprised by the opposition you encountered, and I applaud your perseverance in not accepting initial defeat. The fight for justice is never-ending because resistance to challenges to entrenched attitudes is never-ending. Would that the multitudes learn, as you have learned, that they “still have so much more to learn.”
Best wishes in whatever the future holds for you.
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Thank you for you always thoughtful comments, Mister Muse. I have enjoyed your music and humor over the years and look forward visiting your blog in the future. Wishing all the best for you, too. 💜
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I feel so grateful to read your posts. In the news video clip you are also an inspiration of quiet strength and persistence. It’s such important work and hard work and tiring work and risky work but it is paying off.
As a side note, in today’s paper was an article that a local chief who collaborated with another chief and the Grand Council together won a settlement trust fund of 2.8 billion dollars from the Canadian government. This is after many years of hard work. Funds will help to support revitalization and protection of the language, culture, heritage and wellness of First Nations across Canada. Considering there are so few fluent indigenous speakers left (in our area at least), and the grants that were available to record and transmit the language were so small, this feels late… but certainly better late than never. Same with the place name corrections which are finally taking hold and the slow process of eliminating racial stereotype symbols such as the ones at your daughter’s school.
Anyway, dear Carol, I love how your words just flow so eloquently and the important topics are allowed to shine. I feel so sad if this is your last post. But I also totally understand the need to direct energy with intention in the places that feel most right at a given time.
So grateful for all you’ve shared of your journey… and I feel so lucky to have found your blog. Much love, and thanks <33
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Thank you so much for your kind and lovely comments, Lia. I also appreciate the information you shared about issues in Canada. There is a lot of work for all of us to do. You have such a lovely blog, with deep and meaningful poetry. I look forward to reading more in the future. Sending gratitude and love to you. 💜
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Thank you Carol for this hugely appreciated encouragement. It means so much to me, especially coming from one whose work I so admire. I truly look forward to knowing more of your work as well. It’s a gift of great value. Much love <33 🙏💐
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Mon Ami … if this is your final entry in the blogosphere, it will be a far, far dimmer place without your life experience and the mark only a very skilled wordsmith can leave. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you for your philosophy on life and all it’s struggles and the educational manner you have passed on your experiences and knowledge of the generally unfair world we live in. You have been an inspiration to me and your blog has always been my first ‘go to’ blog. You will be missed Carol, more than you know. If I win the lottery, I will jet over the pond, hunt you down simply to have a cup of tea and a chat with an amazing woman …. take care my friend because we care for you xxx
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Ah dear Pat, I am so grateful we met. You have been a deep and true friend over the years. Thank you. And thank you for your kindness and support. I hope you do win the lottery so you can come visit. You might want to wail until summer, though. The snow here is deep and the weather is really, really cold right now. Sending love and best wishes, and please stay in touch. 💜
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Carol, I’m sorry to hear you are running out of blogging “steam.” But I’m sure you’ll keep fighting the good fight no matter where you apply your energies. I hope to see you around town again sometime soon!
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Thank you so much for your kindness, Marie. I’m grateful that we met here, and I would love to meet for coffee or tea some day when you’re on my side of town. I’ll keep visiting your blog, watching for your next book signing! Sending my gratitude and best wishes. 💜
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Yes, would love to meet up sometime. Please let me know how to reach you – you can provide contact info through my website: http://www.mariezwrites.com/contact-1.html
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Thank you for all you’ve done, on the blog and in the world. You will be missed – but that’s no reason to reconsider your moving on!
My high school also had a horrible Native caricature as the mascot and so it remained year after year in spite of complaints. Sadly, shamefully, we didn’t have your fortitude and commitment. I recently saw it’s been changed. I wish they had changed it to the Red Hawks. No one can explain to me why the name Sharks was chosen in a school that is now predominantly Latino when that’s the Puerto Rican gang in West Side Story.
Wishing you all best on your road, and with the book.
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Meeting you here has been a gift, Diane. I’ve learned so much from you and your work and appreciate your kindness, support, and friendship over the years.
It’s interesting to hear about your high school. It was a fascinating experience to see how much attention the logo issue generated. No one showed up for legislative hearings on infant mortality, but huge rooms were packed with media and spectators when logos were on the agenda. I really never imagined it would turn out to be such an incredible adventure.
Editing is an adventure, too, in a different way. I just finished editing the first 450 pages. There’s more to go yet before I start at the beginning again. I’ve been learning as I go and have realized there’s a lot I would change in the beginning. But not until I’ve made through the whole manuscript.
I hope you will keep in touch and let me know when you’ve published something new or will be speaking in a virtual conference. In the meantime, I send my deep gratitude and best wishes to you. 💜
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Much love to you. And appalling that no one cared about infant mortality. Yes, we must stay in touch!
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It was fascinating to read about your determination, process, and ultimately successful efforts to challenge the use of Indian names and mascots. You modeled respectful dissent and confident perseverance, and led the way for many others who later took up the mantle. I am a relatively recent follower of your blog, Carol, and am saddened that I will not be seeing more of your wise and thoughtful posts. Wishing you the very best in everything that comes next.
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Thank you so much for your thoughtful, lovely comments, Donna. I am truly grateful I’ve had a chance to read your deep and important posts, and look forward to reading more in the future. Sending my gratitude and best wishes to you. 💜
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Carol, you remain close to my heart ❤ I wish you all the best in getting your book out into the world 🙂
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Thank you for your kind and lovely comments, Ros, and for all of your kindness and support over the years. I’m grateful we met and look forward to staying in touch with you and your blog in the future, dear “sister in spirit.” 💜
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Likewise, dear “sister in spirit.” ❤
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Carol, you were a leader in a movement that has now taken off. I’m trusting we will stay in touch and chat sometime soon.
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Thank you for your always kind words, dear Skywalker. I look forward to our next adventure together and send my best wishes. 💜
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Hello, Carol; cyfarchion from the green hills of Cymru. Just a few words to say thank you, and to wish you and your family well. Thoughts of little Pinto will always be with me. Take care.
Mick.
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Thank you so much for your kind words, Mick. I am so grateful we met here. You are such a wise and gifted storyteller.
(Memories of Pinto will stay with me, too. Sometimes when it’s quiet, I swear I hear his gentle sighs, and the fluttering wings of my parakeet, Queenie, who passed last winter. I will always be grateful for the times we shared together.)
I look forward to your next posts, and send my best wishes to you. 💜
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Carol,
You have been an inspiration to me for over a decade. I have been much less active on social media for a number of years now, having sort of given up on trying to “change the world.” Thank you for the contribution you have made in broadening my planetary perspective. Peace…
Bob Turcotte >
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Thank you so much for your kind words, Bob. Your work has been inspiring to me as well, and I send my best wishes to you and hope you continue sharing your important reflections and music. 💜
(I see that you comment came in twice from different accounts. I wasn’t sure which one to accept, or reply to, so I’ve accepted both with deep gratitude.)
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I didn’t know if you’d remember me as “mytiturk” so I added my name and gmail full name. It is good to be in touch.
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Carol,
You have been an inspiration to me for over a decade.
I have been much less active on social media for a number of years now, having sort of given up on trying to “change the world.”
Thank you for the contribution you have made in broadening my planetary perspective.
Peace…
Bob Turcotte
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Thank you so much for your kind words, Bob. Your work has been inspiring to me as well, and I send my best wishes to you and hope you continue sharing your important reflections and music. 💜
(I see that you comment came in twice from different accounts. I wasn’t sure which one to accept, or reply to, so I’ve accepted both with deep gratitude.)
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Steam comes out of my ears to hear that same old refrain: “We’ve always done it this way.” And from older people! Where’s the wisdom?! Some people definitely do NOT like feeling what others have been made to feel in this country so much of the time. So fantastic, your dedication and your CALM, to me, most of all. It would have been very hard for me to remain calm. But of course, anger or excitability will only be a catalyst for the same from everyone else.
I wish I had come across your blog many years ago…but I’m glad I at least got the tail end of it, Carol. You’ve been very inspiring to me.
I understand the fork in the road you’ve come to…but you don’t have to quit blogging completely, do you? Maybe you could toss one out there…two, three times a year…? 🙂 🙂
In the meantime, take good care.
Stacey
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Sorry for any repeats, but not sure it went in. Been having log-in issues with blogs. I thought ahead this time to copy it before it disappeared, so…
Steam comes out of my ears to hear that same old refrain: “We’ve always done it this way.” And from older people! Where’s the wisdom?! Some people definitely do NOT like feeling what others have been made to feel in this country so much of the time. So fantastic, your dedication and your CALM, to me, most of all. It would have been very hard for me to remain calm. But of course, anger or excitability will only be a catalyst for the same from everyone else.
I wish I had come across your blog many years ago…but I’m glad I at least got the tail end of it, Carol. You’ve been very inspiring to me.
I understand the fork in the road you’ve come to…but you don’t have to quit blogging completely, do you? Maybe you could toss one out there…two, three times a year…? 🙂 🙂
In the meantime, take good care.
Stacey
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A double thank you for your kindness, Stacey. 💜 It might have been an issue with WP – the previous friend had a similar Issue.
I am grateful I discovered your blog and your deep and fascinating (and very funny) reflections. Your work has taught me a great deal and often made me smile. Sending my best wishes to you. And just in case why you wonder why I just refollowed your blog, it’s because for some unknown reason, I never received notifications of your new posts. Now, I hope I do so I can still visit more easily in the future. 🙂
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Carol! I am dismayed that this will be your last blog, although my blogging has been waning lately, too, with the desire to get to more heartfelt projects finished and having to make a choice with the limited time available to us to follow our bliss amidst jobs and families and what not. I will really miss your kind words, your kindred spirit, and your need to right injustices where you see them. I hope this work will continue for you and that you don’t lose your fighting spirit. These issues do seem to take forever to resolve as your post suggests and sometimes generation upon generation passes before the wrongs are made right. But we need to keep fighting the good fight, eh? Please don’t lose touch with me. You can always reach me at pamlazos@gmail.com. And if you ever want to co-author an article with me about the lack of access to clean water on native lands — it is yet another atrocity perpetrated by you know who — I will drop what I’m doing and make time for that project!
I came across this quote the other day ascribed to the Ojibwe nation: “Sometimes I go about in pity for myself, and all the while, a great wind carries me across the sky.” When I feel I’m getting nowhere in writing the wrongs and there seems to be no progress in sight, I try to remember how much better things are then when my immigrant grandparents arrived in this country. I don’t lose sight of all the work still to be done, but at least I fell better about the accomplishments. May the great wind carry you gently to your next great adventure, supporting you ever step of the way. Big Love. xoxoxo
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Thank you so much for your thoughtful, lovely comments, Pam. I am so grateful we met here. I have learned so much from you over the years and will do my best to stay in touch. As you can see from my belated reply, I often get lost in the formidable project I’ve undertaken. You can reach me, too, at carolahand@gmail.com.
I am deeply honored by your suggestion to work together on an article about water issues on Native lands! It’s a crucial issue and tribes are on the forefront of so many exciting and difficult initiatives. I will think about your offer seriously, but I suspect it will be even more formidable than the one I’m working on now. with 20 more chapters to go in the editing process.
In the meantime, your comment made me remember a webinar I recently attended. It was a series of Ojibwe storytellers sponsored by the Wisconsin Historical Society. There’s one storyteller in particular I think you will love. Here’s a link to the video of the session: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36uC6MTxShs&t=110s. I’d love to hear what you think about it.
Sending “Big love” to you, too, dear friend. 💜
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Carol, I will miss your voice in the blogosphere, and yet it remains, more than an echo, more like a refrain that brings its own energy. I’ve learned a lot from you, and respect your choice to move on. It’s not easy to make that choice, I know, as I have been asking myself similar questions lately: how can I best spend my time and talents, among them. Please take care of yourself, and I hope you find peace and happiness.
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Thank you so much for your kind and lovely comments, Mary. And as you point out, it wasn’t easy to resign from teaching, or stop blogging, but I realized I needed the time and space to honor the promise I made to others to share their stories. It’s been a fascinating journey traveling through time to weave together stories from many different perspectives. It’s meant a lot of research to fill in the missing pieces and a lot of deep reflection. The chance to finally make that journey, though, has been a gift.
I send my gratitude and best wishes to you, and look forward to learning more about the world of poetry from your lovely blog. 💜
In case you wonder why I just followed your blog, I just realized that WP stopped sending me notices of your recent posts, so I re-followed you.
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